Blessed am i as i have such caring friends around. Such optimistic family members and colleagues all around me. ARGH! The 'hole' is getting worse although it is sewn up instead of left open for it to naturally heal. I dont wanna do anything about it cos i am damn scared out of my wits la. Hope i dont have to go under the knife again, freaking torturing lor the last time. But never the less i have to thank all the peeps that are always behind me for all this time.

This is a peom for all those out there that gave me emotional support:

Sometimes,
mere words are just not enough to express to a friend
how i feel.
Yet, i try must.
When we gather sometimes, much is
exchanged.
Including words of gratitude.
Distance is but a small barrier
to friendship,
and not even that to memories.
Only sometimes the only thing we can offer a distance is our support.
The path ahead is bumpy enough without trying to walk in the
dark.

loving every moment with you

painness in all pains

what it sounds like for the title of the entry i do not care. what is more important is that i have to thank 2 friends of mine very dearly, namely TECK n MICHEAL. it was also them that say that i owed them one so is kinda forced one. ya i know there was a lot of care and effort put into taking care of me for just that few hours la, sorry if a lot of inconveniences was caused to both of you.

just for those that do not know, i had a piece of glass some where at my thigh-butt area there under the skin. had it there for about slightly more than a week already. i was doing replacement for a friend, when i fell and a full tray of macentplast all broke into pieces caused by some of the idiots that do not have consideration for others. when they wash their trays they pour the dirtied water onto the floor.

as for that i when to the doctor and got an MC for friday (2 weeks ago). the doctor say that it looks like a insect bite but what the hell i know what it is and i tell her but she still say that leh waste my time and money lor. so i went to my cousin to ask her for her advise, she said that it was best for me to get it out asap.

so i when in on last friday right after school lor than i did not have any dinner cause i'll be on general anesthesia. if i had eaten, according to my cousin there will be side effect and maybe i'll vomit. my mother was there with me until around 9.30pm. just 5 mins after my mum left, 2 of them came together to see me till i was wheeled into the op theater. i told the both of them that they can go home dont have to wait up for me to come out of the op.

but in the case that they were my angels. they were there when i was in the op theater, they were also there when i came around. actually to tell you the truth, i was pretty shocked when i saw 2 black things on my bed just beside my legs. i was on my stomach so it was kind of difficult to turn around to see who was it. only than did i saw some movement than i realise that it was both of them, truthfully to tell you i almost screamed out loud not knowing that it was both of them.

Teck was kind enough to get me some char kuey tiao and when he came back i told him that i cant eat that haha he had to go out to get something else, again he came back with chee chong fan Wah! i cant eat that too. so he went down to the doctors' canteen to buy me fish porridge. how sweet right, i know! as my butt was really sore, i cant sit up to eat so it was like lying on my stomach to eat and that the bowl was on my pillow still quite difficult to eat. i was treated like a baby that has to be fed by him cause he thought that i was in a very uncomfortable position.

we both went back to sleep after that. was only awoken by my cousin at around 7am to eat again. she brought what they call it as the soup that helps wounds heal better. i opened it hoping that it might be something really delicious but i saw that it was fish soup hai such a dash of my hopes.

was fed again by micheal the other angel, while he was also eating the char kuey tiao that was bought earlier by teck. so funny la he take one mouth of his food and feed me one mouth of my stupid fish soup, he kinda also ate up my fish soup along the way.

how lucky am i having such good friends around! actually they kinda look damn cute went they woke up to just feed me and help me get around. yup so just for that i owe them both ONE BIG FAVOUR i remember that if you think that i have forgotten.

*Just have to tell me how to repay you both ok?

The RED Alert

The title of today's blog sounds like a game right? i know that cos i'll always sneak into my brother's room to play on his computer when he is not around..haha..

Have been watching tv a lot these days not going out too much already..also because that my butt hurts la..more than often during a favourite programme there will always be advertisements right? But this case it is exceptionally frequent that i see the Motorola(RED) advertisement..i kind of like it although some may say that its boring..

I do not really believe that advertising the campaign to fight AIDS in Africa will be so that successful as this kind of things can not be encouraged through ads..but more in the way that a person is brought up.

We have Jonathan Leong, Rui En, Madonna and many more celebrities that are promoting the campaign in more than 1 way. they buy the RED product and also have on the many different RED t-shirt than has many words that have r.e.d. in it. like for example inspiRED, undeterRED, discoverRED and i think there is many more but just that i kind of have a brain block right now and cant think of any other..

For such thin i am not a really big fan of or may i say a big supporter la not that i heck care those that are suffering from the epidemic but is just that money do not really work things out for many situations maybe for this but it will not last very long. how long can this campaign go on? and also how many people will always buy some products in relation to this kind of campaign to support whatever company that will donate a certain amount to Africa? now do you get what i am trying to say?

If wishes were horses, would you still ride?
Every decision brings a price,
and often that price brings sadness when friends must part for a time.
And still, hope remains.

im now officially broke to the extend that i have to go back and work for what i want and most of all the basics of having pocket money...just a little relief that i paid my school fees already so much of the burden is gone for now...

ok so i went back to the A**** to work. Saw many new faces and also a small friction of the old staff. i got my hair cut just the fringe but i thought it will be nice but it turn out to be bad. Its not long neither is it short, its hindering my vision lor. Whatever it is i got to spend some time pinning up the stupid fringe before i report to work.

Joey said that i looked like i just woke up and wanted my bed damn badly again. He's wrong lor i slept like more than 12 hrs than woke up at 1.30pm to eat and perpare to go to work at 6pm. The wedding dinner went on smoothly..of cos la when hui xian and i do VIP service sure no problem one lor.

i was really happy that the wedding dinner could end early lor. This is the first time that i have been working there that it ends slightly early. Xian, N**** and I went around helping others that were taking the normal tables to do service of the Golden Yam Paste with Ginko Nut or help them do clearing.

When most of the guest cleared out and those friends of mine should be going home by than cause they work till 11pm only whereas for me im doing midnight shift also, there was this table of guest that was still there as they were still drinking lor. What the hell still smoke in the ballroom, so bloody stinky lor not only that when they know that they are not suppose to smoke in any hotel. They must only be outside of the hotel premises than can smoke but what the hell why should i be the one tell them off when it was their friend's wedding, right?

When I was helping to do clearing, xian and n**** keep on looking towards me and i thought that theres something wrong. But from how they look at each other and towards me i know that they are up to something lor, something evil and scheming. So i ask them whats up and they didnt want to say, only later was i able to force it out of xian la.

One of the guests that was from that table asked for a plastic bag to put whatever they have la. Whats funny is that both N and i approached him and also said sure at the same time. Since i was standing at a position that was blocked by N and some chairs, it was difficult for me to walk to get it. N also do not know if he should go take it cause i turned and showed that i wanted to go take it. In the end both N and I did not take it, in fact xian was asked by N to take it.

When I was about to turn around and go to the side stations to collect back the menus and comments card, N's left hand was on my waist. At first I didnt feel anything cause i was wearing 2 layers underneath the uniform that was also pretty thick. I didnt really know till I felt something on my waist. You can call me slow but if u are wearing what i was than u will know la. Of course my immediate reaction was shocked and i just grabbed whatever that was on my waist wad right? He quickly retrived his hand for whatever his hand was there in the first place that I really dont know. The rest of the night was wierd la cos he felt peiseh or something like that lor thats what my friend say as I was not there to see it for myself. Dont get the wrong idea I was preoccupied with the sending of VIP's food.

Sacrasm, fake signs of concern

Woa im damn late for school man..i reached here bout 10+ but wat the hell i called in the morning already and took urgent leave and they (the supervisors) keep on asking why and jing yi was my middle person la mus thank her for the favour lor. W lao the supervisors damn irritating la so i got to tell jing yi that im in the hospital and will tell her later on when i get to school. BUT supervisor are just so that nosy thaey wanted to know in details, so i didnt reply jing yi when she told me that (SRY jing yi for putting you on the spot!). As you know when you are in the hospital you are advised to not use handphones la that why i didnt mgs her back lor...


When i reached CSC1 shit man it was like 10.02am lor..damn i think i'll get the stares la, and i was right. When i walk in co-singtel callers stare 2 me lor but wat the hell i didnt do anything wrong wad..i did the usual and sign in lor. The supervisors were talking but when they saw me MS Khoo asked what happen lor, so i tell her la. But on the other hand i got the nasty stare from The SABRINA. What ever that was, even Teh was there also, most of all i had on slippers..i was prepared to get scholding la from all of them and alos esp TEH lor but it all didnt happen..HaHa..i was really in the heck care mood la

I have been looking through friends blogs and also those that i dont know (watever the reason of how i get to their blog?) some of the blogs are those of happy entry that its a new year with everything still going on smoothly. But there are some that shows sacrasm on other people that they once considered as friends. What i can only say is just that this will be the last 1.25 years more and we'll be taking on our on road to our success and if there is still no trust among one another, than whats the last (least half) semester together with that person you considered as a friend. My last entry was a peom on friends but thats only for those who take their friend seriously and as for the 'other' kind of people i really dont know what to say only thing for me to describe is that you've got no heart.

Friends are special people.

We can't pick our family,

and we're sorely limited in the number of them at any rate.

Society and mores (and often our own conscience) dictate we select a single mate.

But our friends can be as diverse and infinite as the adjectives we choose.

Friends, in a very real sense,

reflect the choices we make in life.
Friendship has many meanings,

encompasses many things,

but recognizes few limitations.

It’s not easy to define something that is both universal and unique.

Life hands us many different things,

good and bad.

One of the greatest gifts we receive is the love of a good friend.

Friendship isn't always easily described.

The Eskimos,

they say,

have a hundred different words for snow.

Unfortunately,

the English language isn't quite as innovative,

though it has vast opportunities to differentiate meaning.

Certainly,

Love is one of those opportunities.

And so,

too, is Friendship.

Instead of different words,

however, we're stuck with simple adjectives.

Close friend. Best friend. Childhood friend. Intimate friend. Trusted friend. Beloved friend.

But whether you use adjectives or different words,

few could deny the nearly infinite meaning in such a simple word.

31st Dec 2006

wat do u call today? the eve of new year or hari raya haji i dont noe...friends tell me 1 and others say another so im confuse...haha..

now if u all wanna noe im still in kuta, bali on my holiday than its rainning now as i speak..in my room waiting 4 my bro to get change n we'll be proceeding down to the party..dont noe how we r goin to get there cos its no point taking a taxi down as the place tt we r goin is juz a block away..n by the way the taxi fare starts from 5000 rup in amother words it S$0.87..yup tts dirt cheap lor i noe tt...

*i've got pics on the destination, hotel, places of interest and much many more...haha wen i get back than i'll go upload..

WAIT! before i go: 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' to 1 and all..

*whack the alcohol la if u got the chance but dont whack too much till u get F**ked for no reason..

1st Dec 2007

happy happy happy new year!!! wat a nite, wild n nonsensical...haha first time tt got party n im not drunk @ the end..im good gal lor mayb tt will be my first new year resalution..hope i can keep up to it (^_^)