confusion!!

why do i have to be the last one always to noe about the news weather it is good or bad? WHY? Why me and not some1 else? have i got to be the first..the first with much things to tell u and make fun of? now to come to think of it i dont really mind to be once the first one to noe about u.

i tot i start my day thinkin about u and wat to get u b4 u leave for shenzhen, china. but in the end i was thinking bout somethin else instead of u pls dont get it wrong. anyway tt was e plan last nite b4 i shut my eyes when i was ur pic appearing as my screensaver on my phone. how did it got there i dont noe i only saw it when i was typing a mgs and got to run out of my room to ans a call than came back and saw ur pic.

I knew that ur not around any more is only when i asked blacky than he say:"he fly liao le.." Walao damn embarrassed la he say i damn the slow and blurest of them all. how i know tt u you not around any more. anyway why do i have to know whats the latest going around, cant there be the first few times that i be the last to know..is that a crime? anyway i got you something..it is not really important now cos you r just not here any more.